Esther

bessielou4ever @ 2005-02-03T12:39:00

2005-02-03T18:40:07Z

people are so frustrating sometimes!!!

ahhhhhh

bessielou4ever @ 2004-10-08T14:16:00

2004-10-08T19:19:53Z

dudes and dudettes. i realize that this livejournal doesnt really exist anymore. but i randomly get the urge to update every few months. just in case some people out there havent gotten the memo about my awesomely wonderful xanga site www.xanga.com/bessielou

its the North Park way, im afraid. and also now an a-load of mlk people have xanga too. so its pretty rad. alright well thats enough boringness for now. keep it real.

bessielou4ever @ 2004-05-29T15:07:00

2004-05-29T20:08:13Z

E	Earthy
S	Serious
T	Tender
H	Hot
E	Exquisite
R	Responsible

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drama.

2004-04-29T07:36:50Z

i am amazed at the immaturity of some people. honestly-high school is over. get with the program youngins. wow. so im going to be incredibly sad to leave north park NEXT freaking week. it will suck. but this summer will be good im sure. im really excited about working with behal in the beautiful santa cruz, california. but anyway SAD as i will be- i am not going to miss the annoyances that go along with living amongst drama queen girls. honestly-save the theatrics for the theater majors. i would love to stay and chat with you fine human beings. but would you look at the time? its never stopped me before, i know. but i have to finish up a little bit of homework and then skeedaddle off to beddybye. class in the morning. woohoo. until we meet again- feel free to keep up with me via xanga.

back again

2004-03-30T06:51:34Z

i feel like im leading a double life-having my xanga and my livejournal. lol. im a loser. anyway. im still alive and kicking. peace out.

guess whos back! back again

2004-03-27T08:59:47Z

hey remember me? i used to make an appearance here from time to time. im not sure if i ever eally said anything of substance though. but i thought it would be appropriate to shout a holla or 2 here. i am pretty faithful to my xanga though. so you can be proud of me for that. so here i am with 6 weeks left in my freshman year of college. weird weird stuff. i feel like i have been here forever. and at the same time i feel like i just got here? is that possible? well apparently so. since thats the general opinion of people around here. im slightly hungry right now. lucky for me there is an "otis spunkmeyer" blueberry muffin sitting next to my computer. so yes. i have indeed applied to work at a covenant camp this summer in Santa Cruz, Cali. i am praying that it works out. it sounds like it would be a really awesome experience. its so odd to think that just a year ago i was freaking out/unsure if i would be able to come here and everything/dealing with the insane senioritis and itching to graduate. i feel so far from that right now. i like the fact that in retrospect, i can look back at highschool and say that i had a pretty good experience. granted there were the times that sucked so much and i just wanted to disappear. but those things are just a given. i feel like im typing as if i am "catching up" with an old friend or something, but in actuality i dont even think anyone still reads this. oh well. its just one of those times that i feel like writing/talking/babbling. i love my friends, and especially my roomate; carri so much. i am one lucky son of a gun. and i would like to mention that "spring break 04" in orange county was awesome! california is so beautiful! and cori's family is so amazing for letting 7 girls just stay in their house for a week. i had a great time. but it was good to get back to school too. just think how things can get when you have 8 girls who all want to do different things, driving around in one van for a week. wow. the good times most definately outweighed the bad though. oh HELLO. the weirdest thing of all is that me, estherwise has a boyfriend now. when does that happen? i finally let someone in. and so far so good. i love hanging out with him. its just a really good time. so yeah. so much has changed within the past year. or in the past 2 years really. my life has turned completely upside down. but thank God i have my wonderful friends like kristin and my sister who are there for me always. and now my friends from northpark. God is good. let me tell you. but i feel as though things are getting better. slowly but surely. and for that i am glad. perhaps ill post some pics from spring break. or something. aight well it was nice chatting again. we'll do it again soon i promise. goodnight.

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2004-02-06T08:51:51Z

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yeahyeahyeah. i need to get out more. does anyone even still read this? probably not. yay xanga. holla to any mlk peeps who read this ish. later.

xanga.

2004-01-17T20:17:36Z

i hate to say it, but the world of xanga has gotten the best of me. you can check my awesome self out at www.xanga.com/bessielou from now on. woohoo.

bessielou4ever @ 2003-12-23T03:20:00

2003-12-23T09:20:48Z

hug from behind - you like to feel what the other
person is feeling and see things how they see
them. you tend to be serious and emotional.

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survey

2003-12-23T09:08:28Z

i stole this from ruth. here goes nothing, kids.

1. What facial feature do you find the most attractive on others?:eyes, smile
2. Would you vote for a woman candidate for president?: hell yes
3. Would you marry for money?: nope

4. Have you had braces?: yes
5. Do you pluck your eyebrows?: fa sho

7. When was the last time you had a hickey?:*havent*

8. Could you live without a computer?: i could live, but it would be annoying/weird.
9. Do you use ICQ, AOL Buddy list etc...?: yesm
10. If so, how many people are on your list(s)?: aim buddy list: 180
11. If you could live in any past time period, which would it be?: maybe the 20s
12. Do you drink enough water?:sometimes

13. Do you wear shoes in the house or take them off?: take them off
14. What is your favorite fruit?: canteloupe
15. Do you eat wheat bread or white?: either
16. What is your favorite place to visit?: i dont have a "favorite" place

17. What is the last movie you saw?: lost in translation
18. Do you kiss on the first date?: its happened

19. Are you photogenic?: so ive been told

20. Do you dream in color or black and white?: *not sure*

21. Are you wearing fingernail polish?: clear
23. Do you have any dimples?: slightly

24. Do you remember being born?:do you remember being an idiot?

25. Why do you take surveys?: *boredom*

26. Do you drink alcohol?: nope.
27. Did you like or do you like high school?: all in all it was an aight experience but i had my fair share of shitty times

28. What is the most beautiful language?: i dunno

29. When you are asleep do you like being kissed awake?: wtf?

31. Do you want to live to be 100?: sure

32. Do you think women should be expected to shave their body hair?: expected by whom? not really-its a choice but most women chose to do it

33. Do you like salty food or sugary food the most?: both
34. Is a flat stomach important to you?: its cool i guess, but i wouldnt say "important"
35. Do you or have you played with a ouija board?: nope/never wanted to/was told they were "evil" when i was younger. lol.
36. Are you loyal?: i like to think so
37. Are you tolerant of other people's beliefs?: i try to be
38. When you watch movies at home, do you like the lights on or off?: off, but i usually fall asleep regardless of lights..
39. Do you believe in magic?: "and i hope you do, youll always have a friend wearing big red shoes..." not really

40. Do you have nightmares frequently?: no

41. Do you like your nose?: sure
42. Do you like abstract art?: sometimes
43. Do you think you can draw well?: im aight
44. Do you listen to music daily?: yesm

45. Do you like to watch cartoons?: no way

46. At what age did you find out that Santa Claus wasn't real?: *always knew*/was one of those kids in kindergarten who broke the news to others .lol.
47. How many pairs of shoes do have in your closet?: 20 maybe?

48. Do you like to wear the same shoes everyday or do you like a variety?: usually stick with flip flops when i can get away with it, and a few other pairs when its cold
49. Do you write poetry?: i have before.
50. Do you snore?: not regularly
51. Do you sleep more on your back, front, or sides?: side/fetal position

52. Would you rather have a poodle or a rottweiler?: neither/ a JRT!!
53. Do you lick stamps?: yeah
54. Do you use an electric can opener?: yeah
55. Have you ridden in a hot air balloon?: nope
56. Which hurts the most, physical or emotional pain?: emotional
57. Do you think balding men should shave their heads?: i dont really care
59. Do you prefer a piano or a violin?: piano
60. Are you a sex addict?: lol no
61. Do you know someone who has cancer?: yeah
63. Do you hunt?: nope
64. Do you like fast food joints, or expensive restaurants?: theres a time and a place for both
65. Would you rather visit a zoo or an art museum?: zoo
66. Do you have a middle name? What is it?: yes-eileen
67. Are you basically a happy person?: sometimes
68. Are you tired?: yeah its 3 am
69. Did you drink anything with caffeine in it today?: no mam
70. Have you ever met anyone off the internet?: no
71. How many phones do you have in your house?: including cells: 10 or so
72. How long is your hair?: medium-long (whatever the eff that means)
73. Do you get along with your parents?: usually
74. What color of eyes do you prefer?: i like green
75. Are you a virgin?: yes indeed

i went to j9s hizzy for somewhat of a last minute midnight rendezvous tonight. i saw some peeps (joe,leah, azza, seth, daniel, and brandon) that i had not seen yet. so that was tight. i should probably go to sleep soon. no stalker phone calls tonight. *darn* tomorrow evening some of us former latin students are heading over to magistras house for dindin. so that should be quite the shindig. christmas is almost here. *odd* welllllllllllll i think its about that time. peace out.

silly quizzes.

2003-12-20T07:05:57Z

i feel like this journal is always reallllly boring. lol. maybe: b/c it is/whenever i have stuff thats actually going on, its not always something that i want everyone to know about/be able to read. but thats okay. you all can deal im sure. anyhow: im in the quiz taking mood. read em and weep.

You are Psalms.

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hmm, i do frequent the book of psalms to tell the truth.

Your element is Water. You are a deep person and a
good communicator. Incredibably loving and
loyal when your trust is gained and you are
fairly mature.Myterious to the utmost water is
in everything. One can be an Ocean or a river
but nobody truly knows you.

What's your element
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You represent... naivete.
So innocent and trusting... you can be very shy at
times, but it's only because you're not sure
how to act. You give off that "I need to
be protected vibe." Remember that not all
people are good. Being too trusting will get
you easily hurt.

What feeling do you represent?
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i dunno about that one.

Seer

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lol, i am a "philosopher"..

bessielou4ever @ 2003-12-18T03:02:00

2003-12-18T09:09:37Z

why must it always be so m-f-ing cold in this house? the thermostat just said 66 degrees in AIR CONDITIONING? *nasty nasty nasty* so i took the liberty to make the switcheroo to "heat" and bumped it up a few notches to about 73. suckers!!!!

so tonight i met up with a bunch of mlk people at SATCO. the wonderful/hot j9 put together a shindig for us '03ers who were already in town. it was good times all around. we shared a lot of laughs, and basically kept it real. which is what we do best. then some of us scaddadled over to janines hizzy and hung out some more/watched some tv for a few hours. we also got to see good ole armelle, tom, and dog morton. llllllllucky us. it was a pretty wicked sick time and was just like the good ole days. (as if we graduated 37 years ago, as opposed to the 7 months ago that it actually was.lol.)i strolled back into h-town by about 2 am, checked the ole email, and now, boys and girls: its time for me to hit the hay. cowabunga dudes.

home sweet home

2003-12-15T19:46:14Z

so im here. i got in around 8 friday night. mom picked me up from the airport and then we went to dad's so i could pick up the caddy. it kicked A to drive again. cruising the streets of h-town. lol. it was cool though. and then beth stopped by, we picked up ruth from babysitting. i was so freaking tired that night. all the finals week crap was finally over. yeehaw. carri and i had stayed up till about 4 am on friday morning, and then got up around 8. and i had to turn in my dialogue project, study for my math final and then go take it. and i did. it wasnt too bad. i was just so relieved to finally be done with everything. i feel like i really had a nice last 2 or so weeks of the semester. i have been blessed with so many awesome friends and people at school, and i heart all of them. as stressful as the last week was, we had a lot of laughs about stupid stuff and it was just good times all around. the way that everyone pulled together to get marie home to seattle at the last minute was phenominal and got this nonfestive gal in somewhat of a "holiday spirit".
so i slept till about 3 pm on saturday and that freaking rocked. i went over to allies house that evening and had some of mitzis good home cooking. ive been so deprived of good food over the past 4 months. but that okay, b/c ive got a month to make up for it. i would say more but im about to peace, and go hang out with kelsie. later dudes.

bessielou4ever @ 2003-12-10T00:46:00

2003-12-10T06:46:46Z

*wow* some people really fucking piss me off.

bessielou4ever @ 2003-12-09T02:45:00

2003-12-09T08:49:40Z

*about to go to bed*
tomorrow i have to play my clarinet "jury". ah/i dont want to. but itll be good to get it over with. and then i have my french final on wednesday. dialogue project due friday, and math final friday. and then im heading back to the dirtay south. woohoo. how weird. imma miss all the people here over break. but ill survive. the forecasts say it "might snow tuesday or wednesday". "oh". i think its about time for beddybye. im not even that tired. but im ready for this week to be over with. and to see all my ca$hville peeps this wknd. yeehaw. *goes to bed*

bessielou4ever @ 2003-12-06T13:28:00

2003-12-06T19:37:52Z

so this time next week i will be home. *odd odd odd*
i'll be glad once all of the crap that goes along with finals week is over. which will not be until next friday afternoon. and that evening i shall hop aboard a plane back to nashvegas and ill be home before i know it. this semester has gone by so effing fast. it is unbelievable. im going to miss it here/my friends over christmas break. ive only been away from the dorm ONE night since august 20. and even THAT was halloween and we had a floor event at a jodi's house. so itll be weird/strange/different. i think being here has made me like country music even more. lol. b/c it reminds me of home/driving around in the caddy blasting it for no reason. so thats what im looking forward to. and i cannot wait to see my little JRT's; scooter and china. im not sure yet what im doing today. cori and lani and some other people went downtown and want carri and i to meet them down there later. so thats a possibility. but ive also got to get started on my "self portrait" for dialogue this wknd. so i dunno. it was supposed to snow all day and night thurs-fri. *not a flurry was spotted* oh well. i really have nothing interesting to say at this point. but i need to be better at actually updating this thing. i have a "real" journal that i write in as well, i suppose this lj just gets the leftover boring crap. ill see what i can do to change that. i think im going to go eat a bowl of cereal. peace.

lol

2003-12-02T08:40:07Z

http://www.ebaumsworld.com/barney2pac.html

i heart that so much.

bored : survey

2003-12-02T08:31:19Z

-WHAT IS YOUR Middle name? eileen

-WHAT kind of PANTS ARE YOU WEARING and what color? navy blue pj pants

-WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW? nothing. for once.

-WHAT ARE THE LAST 4 DIGITS OF YOUR PHONE NUMBER? which number? 9807, 4693, 2164

-WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU ATE: a cookie that my mama made/had ruth bring to chitown for me

-IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE? *wtf* green maybe?

-HOW IS THE WEATHER RIGHT NOW? cold/windy

-LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE? christy

-THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX? i think i just observe the overall appearance

-DO YOU LIKE THE PERSON WHO SENT YOU THIS? yes (kristina nicole hayes- i miss all the mlk black ppl!! *sobs*)

-HOW ARE YOU TODAY? aight

-FAVORITE DRINK? 2% milk.does a body good.

-FAVORITE ALCOHOLIC DRINK? *i dont drink*

-FAVORITE SPORTS? me? sports? *good one*

-HAIR COLOR? blondish

-EYE COLOR? green

-DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS? sometimes

-SIBLINGS AND THEIR AGE? daniel-28 michael-25 peter-23 ruth-16

-FAVORITE MONTH? september/october

-FAVORITE FOod? chicken, ice cream

-LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED? umm tonight i watched the full house episode that cori was on at age 6, it kicked so much A!! (the episode where stefanie glues her hand to dj's diary and michelle lets the bird loose at preschool)

-FAVORITE DAY OF THE YEAR? uhh ,my birthday-april 14

-ARE YOU TOO SHY TO ASK SOMEONE OUT? depends who it is

-DO YOU LIKE SCARY MOVIES OR HAPPY ENDINGS? as long as its not action/sci-fi/fantasy im happy

-SUMMER OR WINTER? winter

-HUGS OR KISSES? both

-CHOCOLATE OR VANILLA? both

-WHAT BOOKS ARE YOU READING? i read "traveling mercies" for dialogue..

-WHAT'S ON YOUR SCREEN SAVER? "my pictures slide show"

-FAVORITE BOARD GAME? scrabble?

-WHAT DID YOU DO LAST NIGHT? hung out with all the awesome peeps after they returned to the dorms from thanksgiving break

-FAVORITE SCENT? i like citrusy smells

-WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU THINK OF WHEN YOU WAKE UP IN THE
MORNING? going back to sleep

-FAVORITE ALBUM TITLE? dont have one

-EVER BREAK SOMEONE'S HEART? i dunno

-DO YOU SMOKE? Nope.

-WHAT IS YOUR WORST QUALITY?! procrastination

-WHAT IS YOUR BEST QUALITY? i can relate to a lot of different people well

-HAVE ANY NICKNAMES? bessielou, beans, es, est, esta..WHOOPI GOLDBERG

-ARE YOU HAPPY? is anyone? sometimes.

bessielou4ever @ 2003-11-30T16:05:00

2003-11-30T22:07:16Z

*ready for classes to be over/christmas break to be here*

bessielou4ever @ 2003-11-24T01:58:00

2003-11-24T08:00:02Z

Happy 19th Birthday to Kristin MeTodd Seabolt! you rock my world.

bessielou4ever @ 2003-11-13T13:47:00

2003-11-13T20:07:53Z

so i guess its been a few days. or more. oops. ive been busy/theres been a lot going on recently. so i beg *your* pardon. we had snow flurries here in "chitown" this weekend. so that was something. one month until christmas break. not sure exactly how i feel about that one. i guess we'll see when the time comes. last night we had "dangerous winds" that were like 35-45 miles per hour. aka it was really f-ing windy out. it was time for dinner, some comrades and i were walking from my dorm to the building where the cafeteria is, (this consists of about 5 strides from one door to another) and i had my school ID in my hand when i left the dorm (anderson), and by the time i got to magnuson (the caf. building) it was BROKEN IN HALF. i screamed! and ran back outside to find it, and the WIND HAD TAKEN IT AWAY. so my ID now is broken in half diagonally, and my picture is completely gone. floating around somewhere in the windy city, unless someone has gotten ahold of it by now, and has begun using my picture as a dartboard. *i can only hope* so the woman who scans the ID's in the "ARA" (disgusting cafeteria)was perturbed at me for not having my whole card, and i explained that it had JUST happened, but i guess it just wasnt good enough. she "let me slide" that once though. so now i have to shell out $10 from my sad bank account and pay to get a new card. that sucks. so thats my story and im sticking to it. i really need to do homework this afternoon, so i think i will. there you have it. i said what i meant and i meant what i said. later dudes.

the latest

2003-11-07T01:33:23Z

so now im not going home for thanksgiving. but thats okay. marie helped me to devise a new plan of action last night. now ruth is going to come stay with me for a few days instead of me hoppin the plane to nashvegas. but i think its best for everyone this way. and we will just keep it gangsta up here in the windy city like nothing else. and its okay, to be honest im really not sad about not going home. ill be home 2 weeks later for christmas break which is a month long. so its fine. of course id like to get to see my friends over thanksgiving, but im sure we'll all surive. lol. and during christmas we can plan many a shindig, and thats that. so yeah, marie and i pulled an allnighter last night so we could take annika to the airport at 3:45 in the morning.we laughed/we cried. *good times* so i slept from about 7 am to 1:30. i got up in enough time to order pizza with carri, take a shower and head off to an hour of band. im tired now too. and its only a measly 7:30. ive got a crapload of work to do too. how nice. so i think imma hit that up. *later gators*

bessielou4ever @ 2003-11-05T22:02:00

2003-11-06T04:03:09Z

*my foots asleep*

bessielou4ever @ 2003-11-05T11:16:00

2003-11-05T17:27:58Z

yoyoyoyo: so i went to my dialogue class this morning, and my teacher thought it was a cool idea to keep us late. carri's class is right nearby, so we usually wait for eachother/go to chapel together. but since it was so effing late, she had left.but thats aight bc these 3 commuter girls (janet, vicki, and erika) in my dialogue class wanted to come see my dorm since they had never been in one, so i brought them over to good ole anderson. and we hung out for a little while. they walked around our circular hallways playing "knock knock". lol. i just ate the "sack lunch" that i got from the cafeteria since i dont have time for lunch on mondays and wednesdays. it wasnt too shabby. and i actually got up and went to breafast this morning, that makes about the 3rd time that ive gone, having been here since mid august. i think i have a french quiz at 11:45. and for the record *i hate that class*. im supposed to be taking french 2 next semester but i think we may have to change that. *we* being me, myself, and i of course. and "they" said that taking 3 years of latin in high school would help me. psh. anyway. ive been listening to country so much lately. maybe im just reppin the dirtay south. today im leaving math class a few minutes early,*woohoo* b/c will (a guy carri and grace know from the crew team) is taking carri, grace, annika, and i shopping. aka we are going to pick up the film that we dropped up the other day. and carri and i may apply for a jobs at target since they had a "now hiring" sign up the other day. this $5.25 an hour business at java haus just doesnt cut it. especically since we only work like 6 hours a week. lol. but its aight, we have fun. it just isnt cool to be in such a bad-A city like chicago and not be able to go out and do stuff/spend mula like i would like to. aight, well its time for me to quickly review my french vocab and then jet off to class. holla back youngins.

yo.

2003-11-05T04:15:23Z

aight so i finally got all this biznass started up. i should probably be doing homework/reading the "confessions of st. augustine" right now-but im not. case closed. i dont know how awesome this online journal shenanigans will be, or if i can ever measure up to joe A's blog, but the least i can do is try...
in exactly 3 weeks i will be back in ca$hville for thanksgiving. *odd* time has gone by really fast here. especially since i moved in with my new and awesome roomate: carri. now its a 24/7 partay. *or not* but we have fun though, and even clean our room from time to time. its tight though, and we have "flash flood warnings" tonight. all the MLK hustlas better be going to Janines shindig the saturday after thanksgiving. hopefully we'll all be engaging in some quality sex, drugs, and rock n roll. (3 fave things) *syke* itll be cool to see everyone again though. and even cooler is that kelsie, my all time favorite LP and the hottest gal under 4 feet is coming to visit me next weekend. *holla* we'll tear chitown up. or we'll just hang out. either way its going to be tight and im looking forward to seeing her. anyway, its time for me to attempt some homework. maybe. *its been real*